Little Mister Perfect (Gruesome Prose)

Look, look, look at me

Aren’t I perfect? Aren’t I flawless?

A shining figure of perfection,

A God of faultlessness.

Can’t you see? Are you blind?

I’m perfection incarnate,

Living proof that flawlessness is possible!

What’s your excuse? Hmm…?

Look. At. Me.

Are you satisfied? Are you happy?

I changed to fit what you wanted me to be!

See, see here! Look! I have someone’s ear!

Listen, listen and listen well,

For I have a story to tell.

Once upon a nightmare

There was a boy and society

And that’s the best part! Society!

Everyone likes it, right?

To be judged based on their looks and cover?

“Speak well my dear and do not stutter!”

They stab and wound with their sharpened tongues

My innards pulled and my neck strung

Can’t you see that your words aren’t hurting?

I’m too strong to feel them. Hah!

Look, look here! I’m twirling someone’s finger!

Go, go now! And please do not linger.

Your perfection irks me, I hate it.

Now where was I? Oh yes, yes, yes!

I was making a jest! Don’t be scared, I’m just joking

Don’t mind me, my conscience I’m choking.

No don’t worry, carry on stranger

I’m the one in danger not you, why care?

Look. At. Me

I know you mock and preen

I can hear you giggle and scream

I know the pain you felt

While I stabbed you below the belt

And your death I slowly spelt

Are you scared? Are you frightened?

Well don’t be, I’m just being who you wanted to subsist!

No, no, I’m not being true, just simply mimicking you!

Scared of your own reflection? Afraid of your shadow?

Not to worry, because you won’t see tomorrow.

Decades I’ve suffered society’s abuse

All I did was show the truth!

Come now, don’t hate me still

I’m only back here to kill

I’ll be gone before you even know it!

Oh look! The blood! It’s beginning to dry!

Well, looks like it’s time for another try!

Whoops….I think I just squished an eye

Silly me, slippery feet…

That does look pretty neat.

Aww….there’s the sun…

Time for me to go back home

Where I can sleep on father’s throne

While the flames make me feel whole

Oh how I miss father, how I need him…

Around and around I twirl and pirouette

Time for this intruder to stop intruding

And return back to his lurking

I’ll be back, don’t you worry

I’ll return then you’ll feel sorry!

Fake Smiles and Truthful Lies (AND IT RHYMES!!!)

Interesting title, isn’t it? We all know that person (often times, it’s actually us) that smiles at almost anything that happens in their life, be it good or bad it seems that nothing can bring them down. Have you ever entertained the thought that they’re actually already broken on the inside? That every smile is just as empty and meaningless as the life they think they’re living? Sometimes, when that person smiles, they’re actually crying out for help but they’re just too selfless to ask for it. Just think on it, isn’t it too ‘peculiar’ that they make good friends? Maybe it’s because they know what things to do or say so that they don’t hurt you because of all the pain they faced. I mean come on, you should know by now that you ‘shouldn’t judge a book by its cover’ nor a person for their manner. (bonus points for making it rhyme? :P )

If you know a friend that seems to have no personal issues, just ask them, you’d be surprised to hear what they say…well….most times. Other times they might just smile that ever so easy smile of theirs and say that everything is fine. I’m sure everyone; at some point in their life have done that. Sometimes, smiling away the pain is just as bad wearing it out in the open.

If you are one of these people, don’t be afraid to reach out for help or to just tell a close friend. You’d be amazed at how freeing it is to have someone that you can tell anything to. Its okay to feel down at times, what’s not okay is to think that no one cares. There will always be someone out there somewhere (it could even be your friend) that would do anything to help you out. You just have to reach out the right person and your life can change tremendously. Take a leap of faith, have faith that things will get better because let’s face it, life’s to short to be down 24/7.

So, erase that fake smile off your face and wear your true emotion. If you have true friends they’ll make you feel a few thousand times better! If not, hey, go and find better friends, if your friends can’t handle you at your worst then they sure as hell don’t deserve you at your best. Be who you are and act how you feel, just don’t kill anything in the process :P

Okay then, now that the first bit is over, it’s time for the second part. Who would’ve guessed that lies actually have truths in them? It’s nigh impossible to make something up out of nowhere. Your lies almost always have a dash of truth in them. I obviously don’t have any actual research to back this up but let’s face it, we’re not creative enough to make things up out of thin air. You’ll always use something true to base a lie around.

Why bother lying when you’re going to give out a small truth? You might as well just say the truth. Take note though, there’s a fine line between being honest and being cruel. If someone asks for your opinion, give one that’s as honest and kind as possible, don’t just shoot your mouth and break their hearts and/or self confidence.

Sometimes, a lie is more truthful than a lie and the truth a bigger lie than the actual lie. Interesting, huh? Well, think on it. That’s the entire purpose of this post, I want YOU to open up your mind’s eye and see things differently.

Basically though, what I’m trying to say is that you are beautiful in your own way. You don’t have to smile if you don’t want to. You don’t have to cover up your emotions just because you think its not important. You don’t have to be afraid to wear your true colors.

Look at it this way, I’m sure you’ve seen a rainbow before right? They’re beautiful with all their colors aren’t they? Now, can you imagine if the rainbow was just in one color? Boring isn’t it? That’s life; it’s a plethora of different colors and shades. We’re not like everybody else just like no one else is like us. We may look the same but we might have different personalities and vice versa.

Strut your stuff! Show off who you really are and stop being afraid of being different. Your life will be a lot easier once you accept who you are instead of trying to mould yourself into what people want you to be. Let’s face it, there will always be people that think you’re not good enough but who needs those people? You are beautiful. Why? Well, because you are you. Everything and everyone is made equal. No one is better than another.

As long as your not hurting yourself or others by being yourself you will always have my support, whether you know, want or need it. You’ll still have it :D

 

Confidence is gorgeous. Originality is fabulous. Creativity is never out of style. And you are always (now and ever) beautiful :)

The world would be a boring place if everyone was the same. Wouldn’t you agree?

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind.” ~Dr. Seuss

Eternal Goodbye

Deep within me
Life's crawling and wasting my days
Another night gone and I know there will be another way
I'm leading myself to be free
In this eternal goodbye.

Is it true that we could never be?
That our adoration for each other is 'wrong'?
Why do you listen to them?
Those voices that spit venom and hate.
Do you really think I'm not worth it?

Deep in the shadows I pondered
Of the life that awaited me yonder
If only you gave me a chance…
If only you saw my love through my eyes
In this disastrous love story.

Once upon a time I thought what we had was special
For a time I actually thought you cared
Now all that's left for me are the wounds
Your cruel mark etched upon my heart
Is it really true? 
That you think I'm not good enough for you?

Deep within me
Love's swarming and devouring my soul
Another life gone and I know there's no other way
I'm trying to let myself roam free
But the pathetic truth is that
My life's lain empty and bare. 

And so I rest here alone
Lamenting my grief
Letting my emotion run amok,
Wreaking their violence…their havoc…

Slowly my heart withered
I find solace inside the deepest shadows
Hiding myself from the pain
From the judgments of those vile people
What did I do to deserve your hate?
Why me? Why now? 

Deep within me
My soul faded from existence
Another heart slain and I lost my way
I'm leaving my shriveled husk behind
While my soul soars to the heavens
In this Eternal Goodbye…

New Experience ^__^

Good day there blog buddies, I know I know….I haven’t posted anything for a while and perhaps some of you even assumed me dead or the blog to be obsolete. Well put your questions to rest for I return again (thanks to my friend; Nivetha who encouraged me to update my blog).

So, to get you up to speed, life has gone pretty much as normal this year, although since some IDIOT somewhere decided to change the sciences to bahasa melayu…..this year isn’t quite going as expected. I was hoping to at least be able to understand what the teachers are talking about but thanks to the terms being in bm….I am at a complete loss. I still remembered the first Physic class I had, I was DUMBFOUNDED. I had no blooming idea what my teacher was going on about and I spent the entire class just blankly staring at my textbook hoping that I’d understand…..to no avail xD

Anyhow, life goes on. Apparently no one has a say in the matter anymore. Its all set in stone now and I (and my fellow classmates) have no choice but to continue learning in this new language (overreacting much? :P )

First week went all fine and dandy save for the part I had to head over to Penang on Friday. I guess it’s all good though seeing as how I had a fantastic time there. Which reminds me, CONGRATULATIONS to my sister; Aimi Syazwanee for getting married to someone :3 I have pictures and you can see them at the end of this post so…KEEP READING!!! Mwahahahahaha >:D

It was pretty awesome dinner and luncheon. The food was fantabulous and the entire ceremony went smoothly (or so I assume, xD). The only thing I regret is over spending my calorie budget throughout the three days and two nights I spent there -.-; it’ll take a whole crap ton of exercise to get rid of that. Thankfully though, when I came home to weigh in….I didn’t really gain anything :D

And, for note…..SWENSON’S IS AWESOME. That is all.

Moving on, I honestly dreaded the coming Monday because I had a truck ton of homework to finish up, which for whatever reasons, I managed to miraculously finish before they were due.  And the rest of the week went on pretty normal.

Well, that’s a lie :P

It just so happens that I and my fellow stream mates were picked out to help Mrs. Tanty with the co-curricular registration. It was an amazing experience and I shall NEVER underestimate the responsibilities of the teachers that used to handle the booths :P

I ended up spending at least ELEVEN hours in school. Yes fellow readers, ELEVEN HOURS….well….it was for a good cause….I think…..anyhow, the day turned out all fine and dandy in the end so, no complaints on my end ^__^

Okay…..and now the flow of ideas decide it would be convenient for them to stop flowing….. *facedesk* Come On Brain….WORK!!!!

[Dramatic Pause]

After Midnight Treat :D

Eating at…Oooh…1am??

Oh heck yeah….you read that right, made scrambled eggs. I even made it look fancy, you cann see them at the bottom of this post, I uploaded them, just for you (✿◠‿◠)

So…basically, the story goes like this;

On a dark and not so stormy night, my parents’ website server thingie….yes, I said thingie, got a problem with that? Didn’t think so…now…moving on. As I was saying before being so rudely interrupted, their website thingamabob went down or something and my younger bro started whining for food (he does that quite often xD. My mom actually asked if we could go out to get food (at 11pm…hear that people I can’t see? ELEVEN FREAKING AM)

Hours passed by while I was tweeting with my friends and cousins before my mom got up and went to the kitchen, I didn’t notice that ever happening xD So I sat here, in front of my computer screen and started typing out a post for my blog…the “Friend Tribute” I posted a while back. It turned out pretty good if I do say so myself (and yes, I do say so). The pictures were icing on the cake :D Oooh…cake….

Anywho…halfway through finishing the post my computer started to freeze. At first I thought “okay, it’s lagging…will just let it recover for a moment or two, no big deal.” And that (for a while) proved to be true. Then, it froze again and I was like “Oh dear computer God…WHY?” I waited…rather impatiently while Tweeting using my HTC…several moments passes before the screen went blank and then…*poof* it freaking rebooted.

My work…my EFFORTS on the post was erased…just like that. I didn’t even save it because..well…because this doesn’t usually happen. I was so pissed at my computer for screwing that, you can check my Twitter for proof ^^

Luckily for me though, I managed to salvage bits and pieces of my work from Microsoft Office…thank the Lord for that I guess :D Not even sparing a moment’s thought, I quickly posted my post (heck yeah…”posted my post”) to my blog. You can’t imagine the exaltation I felt at having saving my post. It felt GODLY >:D

That done, I got up out off my chair and went straight to the kitchen and saw my mom there, cutting some veggies. I went like “Ooh…need any help? I’m bored” xD Yup…I’m THAT awesome

Everything went pretty normal afterwards. I helped her (barely…I repeat…BARELY) make scrambled eggs. I then (being bored an all) decided to arrange them nicely on my plate, you’ll see the end product right about…NOW

Mouth watering? I thought so xD 

(Double Strawberry ATTACK)

Friends... ^^ (A tribute to my awesome Friends)

Friends…

Out of all the amazing things I have to be thankful for in life, my amazing family, my luck, my fortune, *cough* my looks *cough*…I find myself wondering, do I really deserve such amazing friends? Speaking of which, I refuse to continue writing this without linking my friend’s blog whom inspired me to write this post in the first place.

http://purplepersona96.blogspot.com/2011/11/silhouettes-stretched-far-across-paths.html?spref=fb

^One of my friends with whom I share several common interests with, and thus far, the most interesting one I have xD

Now that that’s settled (Oh btw, Nivvy, hope you don’t mind me linking your blog here, it’s the least I can do) we can move on to the rest of my post ^^

Okay, friends…what comes to mind when you read that? For me, personally, friends are one of THE most important things in my life, second only to my family :D They are the people I can share my secrets with, ask advice and seek solace when I am in unsteady waters. Basically, my compass when I sail the seas of the unknown xD

My circle of friends (well, close ones at least) are reserved for only those that I feel (Oh yeah....this guy can "feel" :P) can handle me in all my craziness and insanity (yup...I am INSANE), the ones that will slap me upside-down when I screw up but won’t even think twice about picking up all of the broken pieces when I fall and shatter.  I honestly don’t thank you guys enough, that much is granted but, come on, we guys…we don’t do all those mushy stuff now, do we?^^;

As for all my female friends out there, you may be different, and you may not be included THAT much in my life, I still see you as a friend, and, I won’t even think twice about helping you should the need ever arise.

Friends are the people that know how ridiculous, stupid, imperfect and eccentric you are but still choose to stick by you, the people that stick by you through thick and thin. Unfortunately, I have very few of those I would label as “friends” yet, the ones I have, I wouldn’t trade for anything in the world.

I have had friends from all colors of the rainbow (figuratively speaking). I have had those jerks that couldn’t care less about me, the nerds who shared the same interest, the ones that stood with me because of my popularity, and so on and so forth. Any and all you can think of, I’ve befriended. Now, at 15 years of age, the friends I’ve made in my “Sekolah Menengah” are THE BEST people I know. ♥♥♥

There are people in my life whom I regret befriending, they are now, thrown as far away from my life as possible ^^; I mean seriously, why on earth would I keep them? There are however, friends from my “Sekolah Rendah” which I find it almost impossible to forget. I may not remember your name (or maybe I do, let’s keep it a mystery now, shall we?) but…I still remember you :) <and aww…a smilie 

Ehem....so, basically, what I want to say is, Thank You for being a wonderful companion. Although it pains me to no end to see some of you leave for better schools, I pray that you get the best in life...and always remember, meet every obstacle with a smile and they'll just melt away ^^  

 

We may have had our grievances and arguments BUT bottom line is, I'm glad to have/have had you as a friend. 

Best of luck in life Friends in 3 IBNU KHALDUN 

AND 1&2 IBNU SINA

Thank You for the memories~~~

Sincerely,

Amirul~~~

(Your class monitor for the past freaking 3 years xD)

 

Welcome to the Monochromic Rainbow ^^

Hmm…..what to write….what to write???

Such is the question that plagues me when starting a new blog. Honestly, I wish ideas would just write themselves and write themselves well, is that too much to ask? Perhaps it is, perhaps it isn’t. Unfortunately, that is not happening, so…time to get all busy and jot down what I am going to write about.

For starters though, the whole plan is starting a blog where I’ll post my “adventures” and perhaps even some of my poetry, photos and stories :D Not going to get too carried away though…had made several blogs somewhat similar to this and they all fall out of use quite quickly. I don’t plan on doing the same with this one though, I plan on making this one last for a long time

You know, what really bothers me is that there’s so much to write about but so little time and brain capacity to put them all on paper…figuratively speaking, of course. To be cruelly honest, I’m pulling this post out of thin air. I barely gave it, no, DID NOT even think about what to write here. I’m just typing in-sync with what my brain is saying. And yes, my brain talks to me; interesting isn’t it?

Moving on then ^^ my brain thinks (oh yes, big shocker there) I should do a quick biography of myself…so, here goes (do excuse the fairly long read, I tend to get carried away most times)

I’m just your (not so) average teenage boy; born on the 19^th of July in 1996 which makes me 15 now and 16 in the following year. I had an interest in cooking a few years ago, but that soon faded away once I developed a keen interest in fashion and the oh-so-irresistible curiosity of makeup…which, from what my friends tell me, changed me; whether it be for good or ill…I’d rather not know xD

For the time being, I’m studying in SMK Saujana Utama, a rather “quaint” school with even “quainter” teachers and somewhat interesting students. Nothing too fancy ever happens in school though, and I’m left feeling that it is a complete and utter waste of my time. Yet, I’m (and I’m sure most of you) still forced to attend those ridiculous classes, gaining insight on things that I never had an interest in. I guess that’s life, eh?

I absolutely love playing the piano, but I despise those classical pieces with those insane amount of notes in a single page, they might just make me cross-eyed >.< I still take lessons though…simply because my parents refuses to let me stop and because, well personally I’m quite enjoying the classes, and looking forward to the exams; which reminds me, I should most probably post my “Piano Practical Exam” experience here. That would make an interesting read, trust me :D

I’ve been told I have a morbid sense of humor. Okay wait…scratch that, I’ve been told many things; all of which seem to contradict one another. So, never mind what I’ve been told. I THINK I have a morbidly funny sense of humor when I’m in a foul mood, but I THINK I can be funny without being morbid so….yeah….